I visited a friend in the hospital today and it was a depressing experience.
I hope she can endure...that kind of pain...
I wish I have more time and strength so I that can lend her some.
And I hope others don't make assumptions about her.
I am a cynic, but I wish I am more, so that I don't have to feel the pain...
The smile she gave when I left was.... a stab in my heart.

Finally, the end of the week draws near.
Math test tomorrow. Dinner with other A-star scholars in the evening.
Dumpling making and dinner with lang dorm dudes tomorrow. Sunday... Probably research on team project or watch a performance.
We are searching for a lobang to fill up the 2 weeks between the end of semester and the commencement of summer school. Found this trip to Peru that bring us to the ruins and stuff.. Pretty cool. But the price not cool: total with airfare and stuff USD 2000 Hua....
The liberal side of me says "Never mind, can earn back next time. More importantly it's to have fun while I still can!"
The non-liberal sides says no.

My work infested day was intruded by this particular person. What adjectives can I use to describe her? Extraordinary? Abnormal? Unique? I guess she is a span of all three characteristics.

Within an hour or two I was given a glimpse into her world, and I marvelled and grieved at the uncanny combination of circumstances that she has experienced (or rather, survived).

My heart feels heavier, but my will is stronger now. I am reminded that Power comes with a clear awareness of the things which you can fully control, and with the Courage and Ease to let go of those which you can't.

It's really weird. All of a sudden, I have learnt how to really listen to and observe another person, and I believe that I have a lot more to learn. One thing is not to form an impression of a person too quickly, and to keep your mind open about what he or she has to say.

Similarly, it's very easy to be misunderstood. When interacting with a person with a particular personality (something which I tend to assume too quickly), I have a tendency to act in a particular manner. Sometimes my intention can get grossly misconstrued.

I have deleted my previous blog for some reasons:
1. I feel the posts are not representative of me anymore. I felt like they were written by a different person.
2. Everyone has had several new beginnings at different phases of their life. After some thinking tonight, I felt that the cumulation of my recent experiences and thoughts have granted me a new beginning.
3. Deletion of my previous blog is a concrete action to signify my decision to try to strike out a new path.